i love this girl.

soo i had to blog about a convo i just had with gretchen. i sent her a picture of a girl just to inform her on some stuff. lmaoo and this is the convo. some was taken out to keep the identity of people safe. haha

gretchen (11:16:48 PM): Wtf is that shit
DEZi is DOPE x3 (11:16:53 PM): lmao
gretchen (11:17:05 PM): Im serious
gretchen (11:17:15 PM): Wtf is that thing that creature
DEZi is DOPE x3 (11:17:21 PM): lmaoo
gretchen (11:17:28 PM): Wait omg dezi we are going to be millionares
gretchen (11:17:35 PM): You found bigfoot
DEZi is DOPE x3 (11:17:36 PM): lmaooooo
gretchen (11:18:43 PM): Nigga I aint joking lol
gretchen (11:19:37 PM): She looks like she's 30
DEZi is DOPE x3 (11:19:41 PM): and i looked better then her when i was a fetus.
DEZi is DOPE x3 (11:19:45 PM): lmaoo
gretchen (11:19:51 PM): Lmaooooooooooooo
gretchen (11:22:58 PM): Aydios we come up with some shit

blah 3

today sucked balls. im sad but its a long story. currently listening too :

my mom got me in a horrible mood. and so did everyone else on this planet. im jk but yeah people piss me off. lets see i woke up today and did my moms hair. which i hope falls out because shes a meanie. lol jkkk GR I JUST WROTE MAD SHIT AND IT DIDNT GO THROUGH BECAUSE OF A DAMN SMILEY. ughh here i go again. umm let me see what was i writing. anyways after doing her hair i stood in my sisters room and she did my make up and we took that pic. i was trying to take pictures looking all happy but i now learned now i really am horrible at hiding when im mad or sad. yeah there goes my modeling career. ugh i need a job. im used to 'ballin' haha lame. and i reallyyyy wanna go back to miami. its like i have no issues there. i miss it so much "/ but sadly my hearts in two different places, and thats not a decision that im ready to make. i dont even think i could do it. aye whatever. maybe i should start my laundry even though its 9:30. because if i start it now i might be able to get out of this hell hole tomorrow. 'i thought saying goodbye would be tough, but it's worse when you can't even do that'. peace

-desiree <3

so tell me how.

yesterday i was at virgin megastore at downtown disney. and this kid comes up to me like "hey have you seen that video of this kid talking to himself like mad ghetto and stuff" meanwhile he has a girl next to him recording and im like wtf? alan looked so confused lmao. and im like oh yeah i've seen it. and hes like do i look familiar? and im like oh shitt its you. and hes like lol well yeah this video is for youtube im trying to see how many people have seen it. and hes like okayyy thanks. mad gay but he was cute. haha. the first video is the main one. the rest are just ones he has on his youtube.

MY SONG.

self explanitory.

for once

i actually have time to myself. well today was pretty good. 1st period was boring like always. 2nd period was good because i won the election for class president :D (english 3 honors). so i get alot of benefits from that. 3rd period was even better (chorus) because my boyfriends cousin gloria is new so i was trying to fill her in with everything. carswell decided to do "sleep" as one of our songs which is amazingg im so excited. the literature for this year is so good. and we actually sound really good despite the fact that we lost alot of seniors and have alot of new people. womens chorus is always doing a song called "unlabeled" which is about a mentally challenged girl who gets made fun of and doesnt want to have a label. but most of the song isn't even words, its just sounds. then random words. so it makes sense. ah i love it :D i really hope we can pull it together this year. and you already know with me as vice president, i dont play. then 4th period for journalism, me, amber, jeffery, and alex went out in alexs tiny car selling ads all around kissimmee. we kinda failed but whatever. it was so hot :( but it feels cool to just leave school lol. pool next week ;) then i came home and that was it.

right now im listening to sleep on http://www.geocities.com/hearchoirs/ for those who really care.

im gonna go watch queen bees. peace

-desiree <3

i dont wanna lose you

so this song came out like 2 years ago. and now they make a video ? well this isn't it. idk, heres the link to the new video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6dYjXX_BJs and heres the song.

16 years later

my grandfather shows up ? well he called my dad. but i dont even think he knows i exist. i found him on google and i was gonna email him. but i just gave up on it. its not as big as if my father just showed up, but i always wanted a grandfather. like in all the shows how the little girl sits on his lap and they look all happy. i doubt i'll see him though because he's in el salvador. but who knows i might have more aunts and uncles i dont know about.

anyways today was just a regular day. i stood afterschool for yearbook to help with the pictures for volleyball and football. it was so hot :( now im doing my history hw and watching pocahontas because they were talking about her. haha post later

i will cut you.

(:

i'm sorry.

but i think that these are hideous.

thanks for your time (:

Who Am I.

so i had to write an essay for history on who am I. thats like the kind of essay they give in middle school. anyways i liked my ending so here it is.

"I think that if I wrote a novel on all the things I like and dislike, there will still be so much more about me to explain. The question “Who Am I” cannot even be fully answered by myself. The type of person I am cannot be understood with just some words on a page. I am unique, complicated, interesting, and mysterious. Yet the most important trait is that I am is me, which is something no one else on this planet can be. "

cute right? (:

you're keeping me down.

you know.

blah 2

today was another blah day. just went to school. and thats about it. i'm now vice president of concert chorale. suck it (: listen to our stuff here www.myspace.com/chritomusic. i am also business manager of the yearbook and jakes journal which is out newspaper. go me. yesterday i got this letter to go to japan next summer to study abroad. lets see how this goes. i feel like i dont see alan in school. like i come home and i miss him "/ anyways, labor day weekend is coming up. a friend of mine is coming from miami. another event to somewhat look forward too if i ever get the chance to see him while he's here. i just woke up from a long ass nap and now im eating chinese food. i feel like im forgetting to do something "/ i miss new york. ughh oh yea i gotta call this kid to take me to school. having straight hair in this weather is a pain. oh and btw thats my nig kobe to the left (: the only male who'll never dissappoint me. except when he pees on the rug. lol. well i'm out. gonna go shower and finish up this essay on who i am. psh i dont even know the answer to that -_-

-desiree <3

speechless.

i miss miami. "/

back to old ways?

i was mad today. guess whyyy -_-

some people just dont think about things , as always.

today i woke up and went to church. it was good being back. after that went to burger king then to the Marriott downtown for an informational meeting on the University of Miami. i reallyyyy wanna go there but its so damn hard to get it. and talk about expensive. and to be eligible to get a scholarship there, you need a 1400 or higher on the SAT. yeah...

then came home, and did my hair. my boo cindy came to visit me x3 i missed her.

song of today - luv you better. hmm

-desiree <3

Glow In The Dark

he can get it to this song. even on sundays after church (;

gay.

so today was okay. i saw this AMAZING movie called Lost Little Girl on lifetime. omg it was so sad "/ heres the trailor

this is the link of the true story.

http://www.mylifetime.com/on-tv/LMN/little-girl-lost/video/1685979069/1697162618

then after that went to this dinner party at this hotel for this company that does therapy with my little brother. it was pretty cute. i thought the hurricane was over but i guess its back again -_- it needs to pass already i wanna straighten my hairrrr. tomorrow i have to go to this thing at the marriot to get info on the university of miami. lets see how this goes. most more later.

-desiree <3

Where's Caylee

not saying i dont care. but out of all the kids missing in the united states, why is this story so huge? theres tons of kids who get kidnapped or abandoned by their parents but its not a big issue. its all in the media. shes been missing since july 15 and it took her mother 30 days to file her missing then lied in the papers? oh lord.

The mom is suspected of killing her and supposedly theres evidence but the exact details haven't been released to the public. On the night she was arrested, a family friend asked, in a recorded jail call: "How come everybody's saying that you're not upset, that you're not crying, that you showed no emotion, no caring of where Caylee is at all?"
"Because I'm not sitting here fucking crying every two seconds. Because I have to stay composed to talk to detectives, to make other phone calls, to do other things. I can't sit here and be crying every two seconds like I want to. I can't."

oh lord lets see how this one goes. if she's still alive (god willing) i hope she returns home safe.

blah .

its been raining for a damn week ! its depressing. when theres bad weather i think negatively which isn't good at all "/ school just started and im already thanking god the weekend is here geeze.

btw im eating platanos and eggs for dinner. typical lazy dominicans.......

school was better. i got to see my bestie juju ! he brought me a shirt from h&m so now i really love him forever (: we went through a buncha songs in chorus today. Carswell (my teacher) is really impressed. im now a 2nd soprano. freshman year i sang first soprano (highest singers). then last year i was a 2nd alto (lowest female singers). and now im neutral lol. im really excited for this year. we have alot of good music lined up (: well enough of me being a music nerd. maybe i'll post later.

i love you alan.

-desiree <3

it's goin down like the titanic

august 17th (:

i cannot waitttttt !

this chorus trip is gonna be poppin.

trip to the Bahamas and coco cay ?

and you already know we gonna kill that competition.

damn, i love osceola x3

FOREVER.

geeze it feels like so long. i was just so busy with layla here. then school started then the hurricane came and my mom took my comp away -_-
whatever i cant write much now. i wouldn't even know where to start. just felt like posting (:
i finally saw my baby after 2 months. yes were backk (: 101707* anyways be back laterr !

-desiree <3

fun fun fun (:

so yesterday my sister layla came from NY. its been 7 longg years but finally were reunited. we had a bbq at my house then me, layla, and jaz went to magical midway. almost died in the go-kart place. then got maddd dizzy in this one twirly ride. then layla and i rode the slingshot (: after went for some ice cream but i felt sick :(

then today went to the mall. picked up some jeans from sirens and some shorts from forever 21. then went to wonder works with layla and my cuzzo brandon. met some cool peeps when playing laser tag(;

im having too much fun to update daily. maybe if i have time.

school on mondayyy boooo !

happy birthday alan <33

-desiree <3

fcuk it.

not in the best mood. so i went to take the cpt today. and im amazed at how i didnt pass the reading. my best subject besides chorus lol. so now i gotta do this damn workbook and turn it in at the valencia tutoring place to take it again. but theres no point in doing that because all the dual enrollment classes in ohs are full -_- then juju wont be there the first day to guide me through the first day of hell again lol. my day started off bad like 12 am when this kid.. let me not even get into that

"get it together or forget it forever"

anyways my godsister - well forget that she IS my sister - layla is coming tomorrow. its been 7 yearssss ! i know im gonna cry like a baby when i see her. ahh i cant wait !

i'll post more later.

-desiree <3

no stress

so to get energy out of my head, i got this one all damn dayyyyy. hes on his robin thicke status here. owwwwww (; sexayy. don't be jealous robbie. haha

Energy

"I wish I could rip out a page, of my memory

Cause I put to much energy in him and me

Can't wait 'til I get through this phase

Cause it's killin' me

Too bad we can't re-write our own history. "

:( don't we all...

this song has been in my head all day. i feel like making a youtube video singing it. then i saw this and i got discouraged haha. i love her though.

not in the mood to really blog today. i'll post tomorrow.

-desiree <3

RIP Bernie Mac

damn. shits crazy "/ i loved him. everytime i say milk and cookies i always think of him. summabitchesss

"what the fuck you doing"
"uh - im gettin some milk and cookiess"

it's not that hard.

i've been thinking about things that make me happy in a relationship. a couple of people might think im really hard to please, but in reality im not at all. i don't think its such a big task for your significant other to do the little things to make you happy. all it takes is some communication. let each other know what makes you happy , and what doesn't. it seems so simple yet its so complicated at the same time. personally, i love when im having a conversation with someone i care about* and he randomly tells me that he loves me. or if we havent seen each other in a while, how much he cant wait to just hold me or be in my presence - without me saying it first. we can be on the phone talking non stop for an hour or talk for 5 minutes and have you say something of that matter. guess which one i would prefer ? or waking up to those cute text msgs so that when you're done reading you just invision them laying right next to you. i'll be the first to admit - im not naive but im a sucker for a sweet talker. i might be contradicting myself but if you know me , you'll understand. if you know me, you'll also know i like attention. not OD but its just in my nature. so i dont think its that hard to mention every now and then how your lucky to have me or how amazing i am. haha - in no way was i being cocky. but girls, you know you love to hear that. not all time to the point that its annoying. but just to remind us. and we wanna see you do it on your own. there are some things we shouldn't have to tell our man. we just wish they would think outside of the box more often. we want to feel loved. if it wasn't for that then whats the point of being in a relationship?

okay im done venting for now. smh, now thats left is taking my own advice.

no music review - sorry.

-desiree <3

Don't Ever.

for some reason i felt like posting up this song today. reminds me of my buddy robbie now lol.

robbie: say any hip hop lyric and i bet i know the song and artist.
me: okay. "curse any man who can't appreciate the depth of the ocean i swam till i ran out of breath."
robbie: desiree , i know my hip hop.
robbie: and DONT EVER FUCKING QUESTION THAT.

haha were cool (:

Lifes Knocking.

ah what a day. in the morning got dressed and went to Valencia Community College to turn in my appication to take the college placement test. if you dont already know its so that i can get into dual enrollment to earn college credits in high school. so yeah i had to wait in this long ass line. and its like mini osceola high in there. saw some peeps from chorus, other classes. even saw paul. that was interesting since its been a reallyyyy long time. it was weird being in there. realizing i actually have to start looking at colleges and stuff. eeeekk ! then i had to go buy some prep books for the test which im most likely taking on monday. afterr went to my school to pick up my report card. all A's and one B (: i also saw that i have 18 credits which is enough to be a senior at another school. but i dont wanna leave. i love that school too much. even though osceola county is MAD GAY for having uniforms. smhhh. then went to the YMCA to apply with my mom. so im gonna start swimming there more often so i can join the team at school. i miss basketball :( having one kidney sucks balls. then later drove to wal-mart my mom wanted to have a heart attack. i drive good though. then went to aeropostale to pick up 2 polos for $20. finally home now reviewing these damn books -_-

i decided im not gonna do as many music reviews. only when i have time. plus i like having things that other people dont, even if its music :p im selfish but oh well !

and that was my day ! quick shoutout to cindy. words cannot explain how much i love that girl. everything will be alright babygirl , i promisee.

countdown till my long lost sister gets here : 5 dayss. shes really my godsister but screw you shes my sister <3>

-desiree<3

So You Think You Can Dance ?

just thought i'd show everyone (if they haven't seen it already) how AMAZING these 2 dances are.

JOSHUA WONNNNNNNNN ! WOO-HOO.

did you ever think?

that the reason why were not friends is because the person who's in the middle of everything never wanted us to be friends from the beginning? the moment things went wrong with you guys he turned his back on you and put all your shit on blast. from personal things that went out with you two, to all the shit you talked about me. and i was being a bad friend? right. but no you'd rather trust him then your friend from what 6th grade? real nice. you out of all people should know that he knows how to mess with minds. but no, your so in 'love'. he would neverrrr do that you. think again..

too all the girls out there - NEVER let a guy get in between of a friendship.

"broken heart again

another lesson learned

better know your friends

or else you will get burned

gotta count on me

cuz i cant guarantee

that i'll be fine"

i love my real girls*

-desiree <3

you make me love you.

all you know that i am a fan of real music. but im sorry this is my shit of the moment.
because after all thats gone on, i still care.
i think im too nice.
but things happen for a reason.
and im feeling the way i feel,
for a reason.

fuck.

-desiree <3

im back

i know you guys missed me (:

well the day after my last post i was really sick. then the day after that was the most amazing concert ever - ROCK THE BELLS ! then yesterday i flew back home to orlando -_- my room was changed when i got home, its pretty cute. pictures later. oh and FYI Mos Def and Nas are added to the hubby list <3>

MURS !

Mos Def

all for me <3

FSF!
(yeah i've been working on my photoshop skills)
randumbmiami !

blah theres alot more . oh well i'll make another post later on. alot of music to catch up on.