I miss you love.

EXCLUSIVE

intro to my book. thought i was kidding? this one's for kris.

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“Stop doing this to yourself!” I yelled that out loud to myself so many times that I lost count. Just when I thought I was fine, I fell back to square one. Why is this one so different? I’ve loved and lost countless times in the past, and seemed to move on just fine. Why was it that after two years, that burning passion that I had for him is still here? I felt like I was going crazy.
Looking for something to keep my eyes from watering, Lord knows that was the last thing I needed; I picked up my iPod and put it on shuffle. Yet just like every other time I did so, a song that reminded me of him came up. I just sat there looking into the blank space, hoping for some kind of sign. I just couldn’t understand this. So many questions were in my head, I couldn’t even think straight. Did I want a sign to tell me to get over it, or to go chase the one thing I want the most? I mean why would fate have me meet the most complicated, yet amazing person I’ve ever met, if I can’t be with him? The worst part is that it’s something neither of us have control over. We can’t change the fact that there were so many miles in between us, and we barely see each other. Yet when we did, the little moments we shared were completely unforgettable. I started to replay every moment I ever spent with him in my mind. Every stare into my eyes and every touch from his hands, sent chills throughout my body.
I softly sang the last words to the song “I miss you love” and put my iPod down. Something that I’ve been holding in for so long was about to come up. Something I’ve tried to protect myself from happening because I was too scared of the consequences. Something that I knew for a fact he ran over in his head, but was just as scared as I am to admit.
We might have just fallen in love...

-Desiree Tizon