last night

was amazing. one of the best nights i've had in a really long time. i went to the Justin Nozuka, Missy Higgins, and Lenka concert with John* met up with Joey, Shay, Chris, and Nicole. first of all, Justin Nozuka is AMAZING (that picture of him was taken by my blackberryy). if you haven't heard of him, go listen to him NOW ! i met him once again (: after seeing him the first time in the summer, i promised i'd go to every show he has in orlando. i wasn't much into lenka or missy higgins, but now im in love with them both - no homo haha. they really have amazing voices and perform great live. especially missy higgins, i love her soulfulness. the first song that got me into her was "Where I Stood", which always reminded me of alan ugh. so when she performed that, it was kinda tough. i was singing my heart out right along with her lol. but since i just got sick, AGAIN, going to that show killed my voice. i have never cracked so much during singing and talking like i have today. anywho- songs you should listen too from each artist. JUSTIN NOZUKA : after tonight, supposed to grow old, sorry, criminial, save him, oh momma. LENKA : the show, don't let me fall, trouble is a friend, bring me down, we will not grow old. MISSY HIGGINS : where i stood, peachy, the special two, ten days, forgive me, and secret. im in the mood to play guitar. peace ~

empty

Good word to explain how I feel. I'm in algebra 2 trying to do this study guide for a test but I can't keep my head straight. With everything going on at home with my moms health, my health issues, school and jovan. I don't have the energy for this. And I have a concert today. I'm so overwhelmed,I just wanna cry. Physically and mentally I'm exhausted. I don't even know..

RIP JOVAN OCASIO

ORANGE COUNTY, Fla. -- A teenager was killed Wednesday morning in Orange County on Winegard Road and Lancaster Road when the Corvette he was driving crashed into an SUV. Investigators believe he may have been racing another car. The Florida Highway Patrol said the crash was avoidable had no one been speeding. Security video shows the last seconds of the Corvette driver's life. The orange Corvette was mangled. The 17-year-old driver, Jovan Ocasio, was not wearing his seatbelt and was killed instantly. The security video shows Pham turning left onto Winegard Road on a green arrow. The Corvette ran the red light and investigators think Ocasio was travelling at approximately 80 miles per hour. A second camera angle shows why Ocasio may have been speeding. The. headlights of a second car, which he may have been racing, appears in the video behind him as the teen crashed and the other car kept going. Coincidentally, the Corvette driver lived across Lancaster Road in a gated community called Lake Gloria Shores.

http://www.wftv.com/news/18738377/detail.html

damn jovan, im in shock. i was on myspace and saw RIP JOVAN on lilys name, and while i clicked her profile, i was praying that it wasn't you. then when i saw the picture of you on her page, i just broke down. especially when i saw the pictures and the video up top. seeing the car like that killed me. i remember the first time i met you, playing laser tag in wonder works lol. and you got me mad tickets and tokens. then we were gonna go hit up the chimi spot. you were so full of life, and ready to do anything. then after being friends for a while, you took me out to disney. and you were trying to quit smoking because you knew i didnt like it. that day ended my summer perfectly. Even though you kept trying to get me to be with you and I wouldn't because of alan. but the way you would hold me in line, and whenever i would push you away, you'd pull me in and just kiss me. the way you would sing to me, and try to dance on me lol. i had so much fun with you, i'll never forget it. then when summer was coming to an end, we decided we would be better off as friends because i told you how i really felt about alan and how we were gonna get back together. we didn't really keep in contact, but i would catch myself wondering about you and how you were doing. and whenever we would talk and you would tell me about your crazy life, i would get worried for you. but you always told me "nothings gonna happen to me don't worry." but looked what happened now. im so over the whole racing thing. if it wasn't for that, you would've still been here with us. i miss you kid... look after me because lord knows i need strength for the things going on in my life now. wait for me in heaven <3

post secret

this shit is so crazy. it's really interesting though-

song of the moment.

when you begin to miss me, remember you pushed me away.

"and i wish you the best. i guess.."

the way it was.

*sigh*

carrie bradshaw says

"It takes half the time you were with somone to get over them." - Sex and the City.

In that case, four months down - two more to go.

Happy 17th -_-


I hate alegebra 2.

15 reasons to date a singer.

1. We have excellent rhythm and technique.
2. We can do it loud or quiet.
3. We can open our mouths very wide.
4. There are always more than enough practice rooms to "practice".
5. We have great facial expressions.
6. We perform well under pressure.
7. We aren't afraid of an audience.
8. We know how to milk the climax of any performance.
9. We're able to perform in any circumstances...the show must go on, and on....and on...
10. We always feel the need to get deeper into things.
11. We can pretend to like something, just to make you happy.
12. We always have constant energy.
13. We get our pleasure in pleasing our audience.
14.We know how to focus, no matter what distractions may come in the way.
15. We are always ready for an ENCORE !

chorus geek what?

drip drip drip

a classic.

happy valentines day

fuckers.

"lets fall asleep in paris, wake up in tokyo"

- video sent by luis <3

but it all was BULLSHIT.

perfect song for my 'anti-valentines day' mood

-_-

take me baby-

or leave me* one of my favorite songs from RENT, even though its 'lesbians' singing to eachother lol. amazing voices though.

then im part of this for next month's Broadways Best show. I'm singing the first solo :)

weird.

if you've been checking my blog for a while, you remember me posting this song up. i looked it up on youtube because im gonna go see her, missy higgins, and my husband, justin nozuka, at the house of blues. so anywho, this was my breakup song for alan. and in the video info, it was recorded the day that me and alan starting date. 10-17-2007.

baby if you want me.

you've got to show me love.

yes, we're crazy. i had fun that night though (:

UPDATE.

im feeling 100% better. but my doctor called yesterday and said she needed to see me asap. so i go in this morning, and come to find out the lovely ER visit i had two weeks ago was full of shit. they didn't tell me some important information. now im not gonna put all my stuff out there, but i did have a swollen liver. normal numbers for liver function are around 35-45. and mine was at 336. meaning that god forbid i played sports or something and got hit in the liver, that would've been the end of me. so now we might have a case against the hospital. now the reason for the swollen liver is personal to me, but it was serious. i cant take any medicine because it'll damage my liver, well atleast not till it goes back. i gotta get moreeee blood work done in 2 weeks to see if there's been a change. it just worried me that when i was sick before, i was taking so many meds, which was making it worse. my liver could've ruptured.

i thank God i'm alive.

on a lighter note, reign is having a sale this weekend. check it out. reignfl.com

THROWBACKK

i write.

"the love i have for myself and for who i am, should outweigh the love of everyone else. sometimes you just gotta deal with the fact that you're not always gonna have someone there. society makes people think their always going to have a long lasting bestfriend, and a relationship that'll never end. but reality is - you're gonna be alone at some point in your life. better start dealing with it now."

and i am doing just fine alone.

MC BATTLE

lmfao @ 7:20. i was to the left of the camera man taking pictures. you'll see my flashh

UPDATE.

things are A LOT better. this weekend helped me with many things. for one, i feel way better. no more pain *knock on wood* and i started feeling like the old me again (: i went to a sneaker event last night that was pretty dope. sad though, there were barely any ladies. FEMALE SNEAKER FIEND where you attttt ? atleast Reign was in there reppin it hard. anywho - went with jazzie, spiffy, and my twin alexx. saw my cuzzo victor that i hadn't seen since rock the bells, and marcus who i hadn't seen since calle orange, so that was cool. also saw someone who acted like an immature idiot, but it helped me realize a lot. IM SO OVER IT. and i can definitly get wayyy better. met a buncha new people who are pretty dope, and some cuties (; so im good. it was my first time going out in like 3 weeks since i've been sick, so i made the best of it. im happy that theres gonna be one every month, so hopefully i can gather more ladies to join me. now the superbowl is on but i really dont care to watch. im waiting on my mom to bring me wendys and watching my brother. just finished watching this :

oh how i want a man to sing to me <3