throwback.

i got the whole enchilada.

today i woke up

packed for tomorrow

went to the mall with arnold and luis*

made a banging ass banana split when i got home

and tonight i will be going to cindys house for a sleepover with the girls.

NEW YORK TOMORROW !

RIP Michael Jackson

The King of Pop

August 29, 1958 - June 25, 2009

i don't think im the only one that thought he'd never die. i mean, of course, there's a time when everyone has go, but he was such a legend, i never really thought about it. it's making me mad that so many people are talking about all his controversy, when there was much more to him then that. when i think about him, all his accomplishments just run through my head. he gave all performers, whether it be singers or dancers, a style. anyonee who considers music to be a big part of them, has to say that michael jackson has influenced them one way or another. i could go on and on about how amazing he is, but words wouldn't be able to describe. 750 million records sold, 13 grammys, and i think the most well known person around the world. hero's are remembered, but legends never die. you will live forever in your music. we love you.

"If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.

- Michael Jackson

so.

i was planning on writing a huge blog about an event that occured one year ago today.

but there are no words to explain how much of an impact its had on me.

he is the reason why i have this blog now.

he has become my best friend.

and he is

robbie.

DEMON MAGIC !

lmfao. alan made me remember this today when we were reminiscing on thee old days.

WHAT THE EFFFF !

dreams.

here's what my dream from last night consisted of. i learned in psych that it's good to keep track of your dreams and what they mean.

This one is too common . I'd have to say I dream about Alan atleast 4/7 days out of the week -_- this needs to end asap!

To dream about your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend or that you and your ex got back together again, suggests that something or someone in your current life that is bringing out similar feelings you felt during the relationship with your ex. The dream may be a way of alerting you to the same or similar behavior in a current relationship. What you learn from that previous relationship may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistake. Alternatively, past lovers often highlight the positive experiences you had with that person. It could also signify aspects of yourself that you have x'd out or neglected.

To dream that the air conditioner is not working, suggests that you are not able to relax and breathe freely. You may be overly worried about a situation.

To see a city in your dream, signifies a sense of community and your social environment. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone.

To dream that you are in terror, indicates unresolved fears or doubts which need to be confronted.

this part is interesting :

To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, signifies that you will face many setback in your endeavors.

To see spiral or winding stairs, signify growth and/or rebirth.

So i'm guessing i'm gonna go through something, but grow from it ?

To dream that you are in or part of a crowd, signifies that you need to make some space for yourself. You need solitude to reflect on a situation at hand and recharge your energy. Consider also the familiar phrase of "going along with the crowd" which implies conformity and lack of individuality. (but aren't I already feeling lonely?)

blah, my unconscious is confused.

Milosh Review

this is music. i've fallen in loveeeee with this guys sound. the expression he shows through his music, how it can just make you feel different as soon as you ear it. atleast for me it does. the flow of the beat and the tone of his voice, i don't know, they work so well together. these are my two favorite songs so far.

first song i heard of him.

http://www.myspace.com/milosh

you know what's sad?

the other night i went out on a little date i guess you could say (:

and i was actually highly impressed that he opened the door for me. smh that should happen ALL the time. niggas need to step their game up!

word to MOB.

life is good.

yes indeed.

i had a long chat with robbie last night about how much we miss real hip hop. the type of music that gave people a voice. the kind that when the beat dropped and the rapper started to tell their story, you felt a surge of emotions go through your body because you could really relate to what they were saying. we discussed how in order to create a beat for an artist, there had to be a connection between the producer and the artist, it had to fit with the theme of the album etc. now niggas just take the beats of other artists, and freestyle on it like nothing. making the value, creativity, uniqueness of the beat just go downnn. i hate how everyones like "lil wayne is so good, have you seen how many mixtapes he's come out with." but i live by this saying QUALITY > QUANITIY. so fucking what, most of his shit is trashed and he soundes zooted in all of it. blah - im out.

my niggaa

AmIAm. he was the one running the kicks n rhymes event here in orlando that i blogged about a while ago. get emmmm

hello nurse.

this one is for gersonn !

you belong with me.

idk why i feel guilty for having this song on repeat.


"what you're looking for has been here the whole time."

truth.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition or spirit to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better (try three). The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. NEVER BORROW SOMEONE ELSE'S MAN. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

WORD.

How could I let this situation get the best of me

When I gave the best of me

It's just crazy how one minute we connect

I was baby, ya lady, sweet sadie

Holdin' hands was your favorite

Now I ain't got no sad song to sing

You was dead wrong to me, cuz I was so commited but

Since we separated I know you will never find

Find another chick like me, that's why I stay up on ya mind

I know it's hard for you to hear, but I ain't got the time

I moved on, I moved on

I don't want you now

drizzy

i love you boo, but this video is just... -_-

must be love - cassie

i really love this song. i like the chill feel of the beat. but the videooo - ehh, not so much. i really hate that hairstyle on her.

Cassie - New Music - More Music Videos

"you could be mine on some forever shit."

invented sex

got this one thanks to kris - drake and trey songs are a good duo. still kinda makes me mad that drake is everywheree now, he's been mine (: lets just hope he doesn't turn on real hip hop now that he's becoming more well known. ahh, one day that will be minee (;

after seeing this.

i really came to conclusion i need to cut my hair. maddd long when its curly, even longer when its straight ! and it looks so dead, no volumee. poor thing. i like the long look, but i need something new. cutting it next week for senior pictures (:

LMFAOOOOOOO

YOU CANNOT TELL ME THIS IS A STRAIGHT MAN.




that seriously gave me a good ass laugh.
and i didnt wanna post tila tequilas reply video, but you can search it. smh, what is this world coming toooooo

he could get it

with this song (:

interesting.

thank you HOVA !

"I know we facin' a recession but the music ya makin gon' make it the great depression."

yet, his 'little brother' kanye is one of the main artists using autotune. haha, anyways -

i had a pretty good night. i haven't gotten this little feeling in a while. i like it. (:

BUY MY SNEAKERS !

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FOR SALE/TRADE

sizes range from a 5 - 5.5. most are practically brand new, or worn few times. prices are negotiable, so offer away. or if you have something in my size, let me know. if you'd like to see more pictures of a certain shoe, just holllaaaa.

the tag is for my Female Sneaker Fiend account (:

Playoff 8s

size 5.5 (feels like a 5)

Brand new. White on White AF1s

size 5

Good condition. Black/Red Dunks

size 5

Pretty good condition - Air Tech Challenge

size 5

Grey & Pink 5s

size 5

these just need to be cleaned with a suede cleaner, which i dont have

Wheat 4s

These are a size 4! without the sole they fit me and I'm a 5.

Pinstripe Blazers

size 6.5 womens

pretty much brand neww

Nike Air Assults

size 6 womens

Olympic Zoom Flights from 1996. rare in this sizeee !

size 5

pretty much brand new, still icyyy

RAWsession

i've just started watching this. and this is talent, real talent.

i thought this dude wasn't gonna have much to him just because of the song. but you can tell he's into his shit.




and so is she. her dad was my sisters teacher when we lived in yonkers.

amazing.

had to do it.

taylor lautner (jacob black in the movie) could get it all day, every dayyyyyy. did you not see how amazing he looked before transforming into a warewolf. GOD bless his mama. im about to finish reading eclipse since i stopped in the middle (:

this weekend.

was AMAZING. sneaker pimps was the shit. first off, my crew and i got in foooo freeee. as mentioned in my previous blog, my uncle and his artist from new york were here for vacation

, and my uncle is friends with the manager of the cool kids. so we just walked right in. i was able to meet the designer of Tokidoki, The Cool Kids (only wanted a picture with mikey, sorry chuck)

and Clipse. i was dissappointed because i wanted to buy some kicks, but no worries. Copped my "Stop Rockin Fakes" T from DB (da bottom clothing). had to support some local designers. The Cool Kids performance was really good, but i didn't get to stay to see all of the clipse. it was really good to see everyone though. i hadn't seen any of the FSF ladies since i

was in miami for the summer time. they all said i grew lol. but of course, i'm still considered the baby to them. thennn there was an after party @ my house since dad left us with the app. there was so much liquor, i was scared they were gonna get me messed up. but i learned that i rule at quarters. i didn't get messed up which is good thing, and i didnt have to clean up after anybody which is even better. i was sad to leave, but i'll be back soon. i thought going to miami was gonna suck, since its not gonna be like it was before. but fuck it, i still had fun. my uncles leave saturday, and my last day is this wed. so maybe i'll be back sooner than i thought.