shadow

i wrote this over a year ago, but i can somewhat relate to it now.

the happiness you have given me

is greater than the stars in the sky

the waves in the ocean

the breaths i take.

yet the shadow of his heartbroken love lurks about me

like a hawk stalking its prey.

it keeps reminding me that what i had, will no longer be

and that maybe it was my fault for not trying

maybe it was my fault for falling in love

maybe it was my fault that he didnt change

maybe...

images of what used to be cant seem to leave my mind

no matter how hard i try

my life feels complete now that im with you

yet knowing that because of this-another life is being left alone; cold.

his heart is silently crying out for me

when we pass eachother without saying one word.

bittersweet emotions run through my soul

delight from the feeling of completetion-graditiude.

sorrow from the feeling of abandoning a lost love.

do i completely forget my past and move on

or do i keep my thoughts to myself, and remember that my love for him was once so strong.